Unconditional Acceptance

When I Look At You

2010-08-01T19:45:00.002+08:00

That's when I look at you.
Wonderful people around you. Just appreciate. Some are rubbish aren't they? But you aren't that good either :)

Tifanny !! Gigi !!

十八般武藝

2010-07-23T20:56:00.002+08:00

Not everyone can produce results even though they're tutored.
Not everyone can produce results consistently even if they study.

Some just need more time.
Some need more exposure.

At least i tried? @#$%^%$!!%^%%#

Pour It Out

2010-06-24T23:23:00.002+08:00

Cried. And cried and cried.

Still crying.

Re-blog

2010-06-20T20:56:00.004+08:00

Jimmy had a beautiful face and was a great athlete. Sportsman-model criteria. He was a good guy. He was rich but he always donated some of his assets to the community who were in need. He loved charity. He loved his parents too. But somehow this guy had his ego weighing as much as an Olympic gold. Jimmy's hobby was car racing .

Two years ago,on a Friday night, he took his passion too far. ( to be fair it was his ego.) Jimmy saw how is friends sped around and displaying fancy tricks with their cars. He wanted to give it a try. Much of it was due to the bet he had with his friends. Now Jimmy wasn't going to step down from a bet. He never did once in his life. Everything changed when he lost control and slammed his car against an incoming truck. His face was crushed against the front mirror and broke most of his bones in his face. On the outside, his face seems almost perfect with just slight bruises which would heal in a a week time. His girlfriend Janice was shocked to discover that he couldn't even hold a smirk when she tried to communicate with him. Stunned. Doctors said they were 30% sure of getting the bones fixed back in place. But couldn't promise that he would be able to mimic normal human expressions ever again. Jimmy of course was flabbergasted. His whole life was depended on that face of his. His face was his source fame and fortune. Now it's all gone.

Jimmy was paralysed ( his face ). He was similar to a stroke patient. He lost everything in his life. His car, house, and even his girlfriend Janice. Jimmy went to a beach just behind the housing area he used to live in. He sat there for hours and hours contemplating on what had he done to deserve all this. He contributed to charity and he never committed crimes nor was he unfaithful to his girlfriend. After a long time of soul searching he finally realized that this calamity was the consequence of his own actions.

He was too self possessed with his ego. He was placing too much importance on his ego. In short, he didn't appreciate what he had. His life was good. But he always wanted more and there goes his life. Self destruction.

Jimmy had to live the rest of his life with his broken face and the insecurity he had to face in public. But soon as he got the courage to face the public with his so called " ugly" appearance, he was shocked to discover that people actually like what is inside of you. Jimmy was always a down to earth and self reflecting person. And they really do like him for his attitude. Of course there were people who kept a distance from him because of his appearance, but people with wisdom and kindness were getting close to him. They loved him. He fell in love with Jane. A hugely successful businesswoman. Jane said he fell in love with his courage to admit his mistakes and move on with life. Jimmy is now working as a volunteer in Uganda. It's a project he and his wife Jane works on. He travels all around the world helping poverty stricken children suffering from deathly diseases. Jimmy said he was happy and the happiness he felt was the same as the one he owned previously.

Jimmy broke his face. It didn't change anything. The truth is , nothing really changed. He was still the same Jimmy inside. His heart never turned away from love and compassion.

Exam's Over

2010-06-01T17:42:00.002+08:00

Just back from badminton. Great feeling.

Birthday was yesterday. Most memorable birthday since the IU night event in 2008. Thanks for the gifts and love you showered upon me all this time. I appreciate it. Don't be dissapointed.

Thanks God. =)

OK. Please Rain

2010-05-28T14:30:00.000+08:00

能彀在遠方看到你地真摯也是一種幸福. 能彀听到你地声音也已经是足够的靠近
了.

Who Do You Love?

2010-05-14T12:45:00.000+08:00

You must tell 14 people about this game in 4 days in order to make your wish come true.

Yee Chen is the one that you love.

Yee Ting is one you like but can't work out.

You care most about Veen Dee.

Emilyn is the one who knows you very well.

Joanne is your lucky star.

When I Look At You is the song that matches with Yee Chen.

It's Only Life is the song for Yee Ting.

Like A Fire is the song that tells you most about your mind.

And Wei Yi is the song telling how you feel about life!

Get the quiz here. =p
http://www.gagirl.com/quiz/whodo.html

Pack of lessons in one night

2010-05-01T23:54:00.002+08:00

In JB now. Grandpa's birthday. The food was too delicious really. I couldn't finish everything.

Miss you ^^

Good night =)

Cliche and Slits

2010-03-23T23:24:00.000+08:00

能彀在遠方看到你地真摯也是一種幸福.

The Story - Brandi Carllile

2010-03-18T22:08:00.000+08:00

All of these lines across my face
Tell you the story of who I am
So many stories of where I've been
And how I got to where I am
But these stories don't mean anything
When you've got no one to tell them to
It's true... I was made for you

I climbed across the mountain tops
Swam all across the ocean blue
I crossed all the lines and I broke all the rules
But baby I broke them all for you
Oh because even when I was flat broke
You made me feel like a million bucks
You do and I was made for you

You see the smile that's on my mouth
It's hiding the words that don't come out
And all of my friends who think that I'm blessed
They don't know my head is a mess
No, they don't know who I really am
And they don't know what I've been through like you do
And I was made for you.

All of these lines across my face
Tell you the story of who I am
So many stories of where I've been
And how I got to where I am
But these stories don't mean anything
When you've got no one to tell them to
It's true...I was made for you

Ohh yea it's true... that I was made for you

Rainy Days !!

2010-03-13T15:52:00.000+08:00

You want to find a person that loves you for who you are , which makes it worth changing yourself just for him/her.

Here Comes Goodbye

2010-02-26T10:29:00.000+08:00

For now , that road goes on forever.
There will always be a place for you in my heart.

Goodbye.

( It's just a song , =D )

Maybe It's True. =)

2010-02-19T18:53:00.001+08:00

I've learned that we don't have to change friends if we understand that friends change.

I've learned that something that you do in an instant, can give you heartache for life.

I've learned that you should always leave loved ones with loving words, it may be that last time you see them.

I've learned that we are responsible for what we do, no matter how we feel.

I've learned that either you control your attitude, or it controls you.

I've learned that my best friend and I can do anything or nothing and still have a good time.

I've learned that sometimes the people you expect to kick you when you are down, will be the one who helps you get up.

I've learned that sometimes when I am angry I have the right to be angry, but that doesn't give me the right to be cruel.

I've learned that just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.

I've learned that maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you've had and what you learned from them, and less to do with how many years you have lived.

I've learned that it isn't always enough to be forgiven by others, but sometimes you have to learn to forgive yourself.

I've learned that just because two people argue, doesn't mean they don't love each other. And just because they don't argue, it doesn't mean they do love each other.

I've learned that you shouldn't be so eager to find out a secret, it may change you life forever.

I've learned that sometimes the people that you love most in life, are taken from you too soon.

I've learned that you can't make someone love you. All you can do is be someone who can be loved, and the rest is up to them.

I've learned that no matter how much I care, some people just don't care back.

I've learned that it takes years to build up trust, and just seconds to destroy it.

I've learned that it's not what you have in life, but who you have that counts.

I've learned that you can keep going, long after you think you can't.

I've learned that there are people who love you dearly, but just don't know how to show it.

I've learned that even when you feel you have no more to give, a friend cries out and you find the strength to help.

I've learned that our backgrounds and circumstances may have influenced our lives, but we are responsible for who we become.

I Could Sing Of Your Love Forever

2010-02-15T16:20:00.003+08:00

So far , Chinese New Year seems kind of dull to me. I didn't go for visting..And no one visits me also..Haha..Will be going out with Gaharu class on Wednesday. Then maybe on Thursday with my class.

You're lovely. It's true.

Stranger - Secondhand Serenade

Jump Then Fall

2010-02-07T22:21:00.001+08:00

I will be the change I wish to see. =>

You Belong To Me

2010-01-11T20:26:00.002+08:00

Band 5 in MUET. That was my result. Satisfied and grateful. Thank God that my prayers were answered. I'm going for another try to achieve a better result this April. ^^

Hanging By A Moment - Lifehouse

Desperate for changing
Starving for truth
I'm closer to where I started
Chasing after you
I'm falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I've held onto
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you

Forgetting all I'm lacking
Completely incomplete
I'll take your invitation
You take all of me now...

I'm falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I've held onto
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you
I'm living for the only thing I know
I'm running and not quite sure where to go
And I don't know what I'm diving into
Just hanging by a moment here with you

There's nothing else to lose
There's nothing else to find
There's nothing in the world
That can change my mind
There is nothing else
There is nothing else
There is nothing else

Desperate for changing
Starving for truth
I'm closer to where I started
Chasing after you....

I'm falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I've held onto
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you
I'm living for the only thing I know
I'm running and not quite sure where to go
And I don't know what I'm diving into
Just hanging by a moment here with you

Just hanging by a moment (here with you)
Hanging by a moment (here with you)
Hanging by a moment here with you

Dedicated to you !! =D

2010

2009-12-31T22:30:00.000+08:00

Happy New Year.

Very lazy to blog.. xDD

Bits Of Life

2009-12-24T20:49:00.002+08:00

Enjoy the little things.

One of the rules that you would know if you guys have watched Zombieland (or the trailer). I've always been a believer of the little things. The ignored , so called useless and insignificant formalities in life. People tend to look at the bigger picture all the time. Where have they stopped and looked around them and enjoy these little stuff ?

The reason I emphasize so much on them is the fact that they play a huge part in our lives ( at least it does in my life ). These little things in life make or break you. It's true for me.

24 hours a day in your life. How much time have you taken of your busy schedule of pursuing fame and fortune to spend quality time with your family ? How frequent have you actually sit down and have nice deep talks with your family members ? If that picture is still too big , lets' scale it down somemore. Many things that happen everyday in our life as a family but we simply do not realize it. When your mom or dad cooks for a meal for you , have you ever wondered why they do that and how are they actually feeling ? What we care is the taste of the food and we make piercing comments about it. Do we actually know the figurative meaning behind it ? When they cook for you or they nag about the same old thing everyday , it's a way of saying I love you to you. These things go unnoticed as it is so common...

An athlete would like the best sports equipment he could get to maximise his performance. He would like the best tracksuit and best shoes. But for me , at the end of the day it is still the training and match day mentality that matters. Many of them tend to think that if they miss a day of training it's fine but it actually affects your overall performance. Being not well prepared moments right before a competition is the worst thing you can do. In short , never take anything for granted and be complacent.

In a relationship ( common not love ) , simple acts you do everyday may just be the deciding factor in the happiness of a relationship. Simple " please " and " thank you " are the magic words you should be able to spurt out to everyone. Doesn't sound extremely effective as a a good way to earn your friends trust compared to buying them luxurious stuff isn't it ? xp But in the long run , you might just make more friends than foes. Communication is vitally important. It's more than remembering anniversaries and birthday. It's making them feel special even though it's just an ordinary day.

This Christmas , look back and reminisce at this whole year. What have you brought to people around you ? What have you brought to yourself ? Sometimes , identifying and appreciating those little happenings in life might just be the solution to solving the puzzle to form that bigger picture. Engaging in the process of forming the bigger picture is more important than jumping straight to that picture itself.

Have a blessed Christmas. =)

Decode

2009-12-23T20:36:00.001+08:00

Patience. I always had that. Don't be selfish. =)

Avatar. Nice effects. Little bit boring.

Love you.

星期六的深夜

2009-12-21T20:15:00.002+08:00

Can't go carolling with them. But it's okie. =)

School reopening soon. That isn't good. That's because I have lots of stuff that which are still undone. Much to the dismay of my lazy self. == Plus dad is transferring to my school at the start of the first day of school.

Miss you.

Bleeding Love

2009-12-19T17:50:00.000+08:00

Maybe going to Singapore for Christmas ^^

The rotten fish wants to stay rotten

2009-12-14T23:50:00.002+08:00

Cham liao ~ Lonely.......An zhua kuan le ?

Siao liao la..Ki meh sibeh zuak le..ai kui leng ki liao.. Ki jit wa pa kiu pa ka 3 tiam zheng..sibeh bo lat liao..Ka tia , chiu tia , gui xin tia..xim pun tia..siao liao la..Gao chu ko ai ka ki zhi mi kia lai chiak..bo ho chiak pun ai ka ki chiak..>.<

Ki meh bo lang ka wa gong jiao wey le...

Mai kong liao..tan che tia buey dong xD

永遠的第一天

2009-12-12T19:43:00.005+08:00

Cases where words aren't necessary...but there's always a twist to everything.

There isn't much to talk about when you're with that person. Practically it's because you know the person so well..and not the other way. Sadly, that's not enough really. You think you know the person very well. But somehow there are tons of things you don't know about him / her. Unfathomable. It's like having a barrier in between both of you. Or maybe the barrier is imaginary? Maybe you haven't step out of your souls and pierce it through each other's chest.

Rough edge it was
Standing there
Not on anyone's side
Just wanted to know you better
Sometimes , even better
Being together.

Looking deep into your eyes
All I saw was love
But I don't know where it's heading to
Your heart
Emotionally connected to it
No where close to grabbing it.

Silently backed away for most of the occasions.....
Hoping that the day will come...

Sincerity

2009-12-11T21:45:00.001+08:00

Made a video for her. ^^

Treat people with the utmost sincerity.

HOW SINCERE ARE YOU TODAY ?

According To You

2009-12-08T23:02:00.001+08:00

According to you
I'm stupid,
I'm useless,
I can't do anything right.
According to you
I'm difficult,
hard to please,
forever changing my mind.
I'm a mess in a dress,
can't show up on time,
even if it would save my life.
According to you. According to you.

But according to him
I'm beautiful,
incredible,
he can't get me out of his head.
According to him
I'm funny,
irresistible,
everything he ever wanted.
Everything is opposite,
I don't feel like stopping it,
so baby tell me what I got to lose.
He's into me for everything I'm not,
according to you.

According to you
I'm boring,
I'm moody,
you can't take me any place.
According to you
I suck at telling jokes cause I always give it away.
I'm the girl with the worst attention span;
you're the boy who puts up with that.
According to you. According to you.

But according to him
I'm beautiful,
incredible,
he can't get me out of his head.
According to him
I'm funny,
irresistible,
everything he ever wanted.
Everything is opposite,
I don't feel like stopping it,
so baby tell me what I got to lose.
He's into me for everything I'm not,
according to you.

I need to feel appreciated,
like I'm not hated. oh-- no--.
Why can't you see me through his eyes?
It's too bad you're making me decide.

According to me
you're stupid,
you're useless,
you can't do anything right.
But according to him
I'm beautiful,
incredible,
he can't get me out of his head.
According to him
I'm funny,
irresistible,
everything he ever wanted.
Everything is opposite,
I don't feel like stopping it,
baby tell me what I got to lose.
He's into me for everything I'm not,
According to you.
According to you.

According to you
I'm stupid,
I'm useless,
I can't do anything right.

Mungkin Nanti

2009-12-08T22:57:00.002+08:00

The shortest word I know is " I "

The sweetest word I know is " Love "

The person that compliments me is " You "

Wait wait wait....

It's Only Life

2009-12-07T20:25:00.005+08:00

After taking all factors and conditions into consideration , although it's the best decision for me. For now , I still hate Form 6. Even after going through half a year of it already , I still feel I don't belong there. I do hope I'm wrong. But , the fact is it isn't what I like. Being locked. Plus, I hate the new system. There are not much advantages and the lack of concern and desire to fix the problem still bothers me.

Of course , I wouldn't deny that it's fun having all of you guys there. New friends and old friends sticking together. It's enjoyable really. Love you guys =)

Life isn't very hectic in Form 6 but it sure is a drudgery in terms of freedom , a conducive environment for studying and well maybe the lecturers ?

Sick jor. Thanks Echen for helping to eat up some food yesterday. RM 5 is really big amount at sometimes. =)

I wish NS was like college xD

Orianthi

2009-12-05T15:38:00.000+08:00

Back.

Tomb Raider

2009-12-01T22:54:00.000+08:00

Just back from having a massage here in Siem Reap. Not bad ^^

Blogging here from my hotel. The time here is one hour difference. So it's 9.53pm here. Managed to catch a beautiful sunset today. It was worth the climb. =)

Going Angkor Wat tomorrow ~

Fuck and Run

2009-11-26T21:41:00.000+08:00

Where's the old me ? I wish I could lose all my senses now..

Bored enough to go for sex xD

2009-11-25T00:25:00.004+08:00

What to blog about ? Boring day..

Laptop battery sot jor.. Now still recuperating.. ==

This Innocence Is Brilliant

2009-11-20T23:03:00.000+08:00

Please don't be a dull holiday..

Now I know how it feels missing someone being a distance apart. =(

I ain't giving up on love

2009-11-16T16:42:00.004+08:00

She was went across the road to get some stuff she wanted. I was busy searching for my lost watch....

And all of a sudden I heard a loud crash sound.. I turned around and looked across the road. There was an accident. A car had knocked a person down. I was frightened at that moment. Very afraid.
What I saw next was even more tormenting. I looked further down the road and saw another car accident. And I saw her coming out from behind the car quickly with a impatient but relieved face. She was carrying her. I quickly surged towards her and grabbed her. WE hugged and that lasted for some time. Luckily she was fine. Minor bruises. But it nearly took away my heartbeats.

Snap *

I woke up. It was a horrific dream. =(

It's Sports Day This Week

2009-11-10T18:07:00.001+08:00

Willing enough to hear and help =)

Lift Me Up - Kate Voegele

2009-11-09T20:38:00.001+08:00

This road is anything but simple
Twisted like a riddle I've seen high and I've seen low
So loud, the voices of all my doubts
Telling me to give up, to pack up and leave town

Even so, I had to believe
Impossible means nothing to me, yeah

So can you lift me up,
Turn the ashes into flames
Cause I have overcome
More than words will ever say
And I've been given hope
That there's a light on up the hall
And that a day will come
When the fight is won
And I think that day has just begun

Somewhere, every body starts there
I'm counting on a small prayer,
Lost in a nightmare
But I'm here, and suddenly it's so clear
The struggle through the long years
It taught me to outrun my fears

Everything worth having, oh
Comes with trials worth withstanding

So can you lift me up,
Turn the ashes into flames
Cause I have overcome
More than words will ever say
And I've been given hope
That there's a light on up the hall
And that a day will come
When the fight is won
And I think that day has just begun

Oh, lift me up
Oh, lift me up
Oh, lift me up
Lift me up
Lift me up
Oh, Lift me up

Down and out is overrated
And I need to be elevated
Looking up is not enough
No, I would rather rise above

So can you lift me up,
Turn the ashes into flames
Cause I have overcome
More than words will ever say
And I've been given hope
That there's a light on up the hall
And that a day will come
When the fight is won
And I think that day has just begun

Oh, oh, oh, just begun
Lift me up, yeah, oh, oh, oh, yeah, now
Oh, oh, lift me up
Lift me up
Lift me up

Sweet Silver Lining - Kate Voegele

2009-11-09T20:35:00.001+08:00

Well I'm going home downhearted and hoping
I'm close to some new beginning
I know there's a reason for everything that comes and goes

But so many people are looking to me
To be strong and to fight but I'm just surviving
I may be weak but I'm never defeated
And I'll keep believing in clouds with that sweet silver lining

Most days I try my best to put on a brave face
But inside my bones are cold and my heart breaks
But all the while something's keeping me safe and alive

But so many people are looking to me
To be strong and to fight but I'm just surviving
I may be weak but I'm never defeated
And I'll keep believing in clouds with that sweet silver lining

And I won't give up like this, I will be given strength
Now that I've found it nothing can take that away

So many people are looking to me
To be strong and to fight but I'm just surviving
I may be weak but I'm never defeated
And I'll keep believing

So many people are looking to me
To be strong and to fight but I'm just surviving
I may be weak but I'm never defeated
And I'll keep believing in clouds with that sweet silver lining
Sweet silver lining

Sweet Silver Lining - Kate Voegele

2009-11-09T20:35:00.000+08:00

不夠成熟

2009-11-08T20:50:00.001+08:00

想我還是不夠成熟
還達不到你的要求
我真的沒有想的太多
只是懷念你走以後

離開難道真的是解脫
難道真的要試過幾次了以後才懂

倔強說不痛假裝什麼傷都沒有
倔強抬起頭決不讓眼淚往下流
倔強說不痛假裝什麼傷都沒有
真的不難過笑著和你揮揮手

想我還是不夠成熟
還達不到你的要求
我真的沒有想的太多
只是懷念你走以後

離開難道真的是解脫
難道真的要試過幾次了以後才懂

倔強說不痛假裝什麼傷都沒有
倔強抬起頭決不讓眼淚往下流
倔強說不痛假裝什麼傷都沒有
真的不難過笑著和你揮揮手

如果有一刻我們有緣再見
你會不會想起說過的永遠

倔強說不痛假裝什麼傷都沒有
倔強抬起頭決不讓眼淚往下流
倔強說不痛假裝什麼傷都沒有
真的不難過笑著和你揮揮手

I am a cameraman. I was a doctor. I was a pilot. I am a comedian.

2009-11-05T21:10:00.006+08:00

Had general meeting for prefectorial board today. I thought they were going to announce the new board of prefects. But to my misery , they didn't. Instead , I was stuck with Joel for an hour listening to teacher's craping. They can't even crap well. ==

After that back home , started off with a rainy day..Nice movie ^^ Better than I expected. After movies , when to McD for dinner. Then after that went back. Simple and safe.

But about you. =D

断了的玄

2009-11-01T10:07:00.000+08:00

Mug Biology. =(

Make sure you're really ok first. Then we'll stop.

失落沙洲

2009-10-26T21:56:00.003+08:00

Feels good to be at home alone with sis. Very good in fact. ^^

Hmm..my dream house..It needs a very nice study room , nice garden , and nice garage.. Other necessities such as toilets and bedrooms should be nice too..Should be perfect just the way want it to be. =)

Boring day in school and Malaysian do have good scriptwriters and directors but they're are a rare gem now..The actors are inexperienced..I'm sure we have lots of raw talents out there. They need to be scouted quickly before being snapped up by other countries.

Dedicated to Kylie. =D

2009-10-26T14:46:00.001+08:00

Know No Time

2009-10-26T00:13:00.004+08:00

It's amazing how people who aren't that close to you and are miles away from you seek you and share moments with you. It's surprising to see your good pals or soul mate who are just around you , unable to feel your presence.

The problem is not with me being selfish or caring by nature. It's up to me to choose who i am going to be. So , what should I choose now ?

The feeling of being lost in a dark ditch is really awful most of the time. Waiting there for someone to help you but no one cares. Some would provide you with some words of comfort and some would joke about it with others. But at the end of day , what we really need is some one who could help us and pull us out of the ditch and the problems we're facing. We need some one who could be with us when we need them if not 24/7.

I don't have time to think about this now. I'll follow your path God. =)

I'll stand by you.
Won't let nobody hurt you..
I'll stand by you.
Take me in into your darkest hour..
And I'll never desert you..
I'll stand by you.

Po po po po poker face ~

2009-10-25T14:21:00.002+08:00

They never take me seriously. Period.

Perseverance

2009-10-24T21:34:00.008+08:00

I spent my afternoon watching an hour and 3o minutes of a movie. The movie is called Homeless to Harvard. A very inspiring one.

It's based on true story. Liz Murray's parents were drug addicts and were infected by HIV. She was homeless at just 15. Her mother died because of AIDS at that time and her father was sent to a homeless shelter. Murray's life turned around when she began attending the Humanities Preparatory Academy in Chelsea, Manhattan. Though she started high school later than most students, and remained without a stable home while supporting herself and her sister, Murray graduated in only two years ( normally would take 4 years ). She was awarded a New York Times scholarship for needy students and accepted into Harvard University, matriculating in the fall semester of 2000. She left Harvard in 2003 to care for her sick father; she resumed her education at Columbia University to be closer to him. In 2006 her father died of AIDS. She eventually returned to Harvard in 2008 and graduated in June 2009 with a bachelor's degree in psychology. As of August 2009, she had begun taking graduate courses at Harvard Summer School and would like to earn a doctorate in clinical psychology to counsel people from all walks of life.

Some nice quotes from Liz Murray.

" Don't look at the people around you who are doing things and think that they are made of something more than you. Don't get psyched out. They are not made out of anything different than you are. As long as you are willing to work past the point where you feel that you have absolutely nothing left inside of you. That's perseverance. "

" You know that feeling , where you just don't want to do something. Where you just want to give up ? I think to have perseverance is to know exactly how to overcome that feeling , every time it hits you. "

Amazing isn't it ? My afternoon wasn't just a waste. =)

What About Now ?

2009-10-23T22:50:00.001+08:00

The change must be permanent. Period.

As If

2009-10-22T23:21:00.000+08:00

At the end of the day , still have to study...zzzz ~

Should I go to school tomorrow ?

You Can't Break A Broken Heart

2009-10-19T20:49:00.002+08:00

New songs in my playlist.. 10 songs from Kate Voegele. Listen to every one of them. These are goood craps..

Enjoy ~~ Really nice. ^^

A Fine Mess

2009-10-19T00:27:00.001+08:00

Kate Voegele.

Sweet

Hot

Talented

=D

A Reason For Going There

2009-10-18T23:37:00.004+08:00

I had the intention of discussing not arguing with you. This isn't the first time and I hope it is the last time. Tried explaining it but it sure doesn't work out.

I was trying to explain the disadvantage of that particular subject but it seems that everytime i reached out into that conversation ,it turned into a feud. What's wrong ? So incomprehensible ?
It was like trying to find a lion in the middle of New York city throughout the process of my explanation. I tried to make it simpler but to no avail.

I was just ranting out my thoughts and dissatisfaction to someone and hoped you would listen and talk to me about it. Instead it felt like I was pushing through the finish line all on my own. In fact , it turned worse. I was not even given a consolation prize for finishing the race.

What is fate like ? How do you expect to face it when it comes so surprisingly ? Could you be unperturbed by it ?

^^

And You Wonder Why......

2009-10-18T23:36:00.000+08:00

I study for my knowledge not for the sake of examinations.

Alone At Home

2009-10-17T12:26:00.003+08:00

Sometimes even if we have someone we like at the moment , we're still foolish enough to let ourselves be lonely.

McD later. My ankle....I want it to be ok completely ~

Exam coming soon..I'm kinda throwing in the white towel already.. Zzz

It Isn't 3 o'clock Yet =]

2009-10-10T12:51:00.005+08:00

Here's a better video of the Love Story cover..Black and White videos..Xixi..Tempo of both song so fast.. >.< Sorry for the poor quality of sound. I do not know why it's like this..Maybe my phone's problem..Maybe smth to do with my piano also.. long time since I've tuned it and some of the bass strings almost broken dy..Better to listen with headphones..

Watched Tsunami yesterday night. Not bad but I didn't cry..Maybe because there were too many funny parts in that movie. Rainy - rainy morning.. Expects afternoon to be hot ? Zzzz

There's a blood donation campaign at summit. Conducted by St John/ If you think you have healthy and ever sufficient blood supply. Please go and donate some. Some people REALLY do need it. ^^

Love Story cover

2009-10-08T20:20:00.003+08:00

Skipped school today. Did this video out of boredom. Sorry for the imperfect playing. I only managed to make only one recording because my phone's battery was almost dead at that time.
I'll make a better one next time.. ^^

Don't Forget - Demi Lovato

2009-10-04T18:29:00.000+08:00

Did you forget
That I was even alive
Did you forget
Everything we ever had
Did you forget
Did you forget
About me

Did you regret
Ever standing by my side
Did you forget
What we were feeling inside
Now I'm left to forget
About us

But somewhere we went wrong
We were once so strong
Our love is like a song
You can't forget it

So now I guess
This is where we have to stand
Did you regret
Ever holding my hand
Never again
Please don't forget
Don't forget

We had it all
We were just about to fall
Even more in love
Than we were before
I won't forget
I won't forget
About us

But somewhere we went wrong
We were once so strong
Our love is like a song
You can't forget it

Somewhere we went wrong
We were once so strong
Our love is like a song
You can't forget it
At all

And at last
All the pictures have been burned
And all the past
Is just a lesson that we've learned
I won't forget
I won't forget us

But somewhere we went wrong
Our love is like a song
But you won't sing along
You've forgotten
About us

Unlucky =(

2009-10-03T23:15:00.001+08:00

Consider myself unlucky because I managed to fall so gracefully and sprained my ankle.
Consider my self unlucky because I didn't manage to get to see a doctor on time.
Consider myself unlucky for not being able to attend mooncake festival or weeding dinner.

I had to watch Love Matters with sis at home. ==

I am getting used to hopping around my house on one leg at the moment ^.^

206

2009-09-29T20:50:00.002+08:00

It's the 2nd day of school since the 1 week Raya break. Not much has changed. Well maybe a little. It's worth a smile =)

Results not amiable enough for me. Chemistry an A- , PA a B+ , Maths a C- ( careless me >.< ). Haven't got back the others..Hope it's more encouraging..Haha.

I'm really afraid about next week's MUET speaking exam. I am not prepared at all !!!

And I have to think about a title / problem for the English colloquium. It's so hard !!

* The simplest things are always the complicated ones *

Holidays ending soon..

2009-09-25T21:49:00.002+08:00

Life has been blurry..ughh..I messed up certain things and it's my fault. I'll be patient because God always has His way. I trust Him.

Homeworks piling up. I AM LAZY !!! NEED HELP XD

If I could rearrange the letters U and I , I would put them together next to each other forever.

It's like you were brought back to her. Wait and see..

Badminton tomorrow ~

* You look so beautiful today *

Why - Rascal Flatts

2009-09-23T11:06:00.000+08:00

Live Like We're Dying - Kris Allen

2009-09-22T11:45:00.002+08:00

Sometimes we fall down and can't get back up
we're hiding behind skin that's too tough
how come we don't say I love you enough
till it's to late, it's not too late

Our hearts are hungry for a food that won't come
we could make a feast from these crumbs
and we're all staring down the barrel of a gun
so if your life flashed before you
what would you wish you would've done

Yeah... gotta start
lookin at the hand of the time we've been given here
this is all we got and we gotta start pickin it
every second counts on a clock that's tickin'
gotta live like we're dying

We only got
86 400 seconds in a day to
turn it all around or throw it all away
we gotta tell 'em that we love 'em
while we got the chance to say
gotta live like we're dying

And if your plane fell out of the skies
who would you call with your last goodbyes
should be so careful who we live out our lives
so when we long for absolution
there'll no one on the line

Yeah... gotta start
lookin at the hand of the time we've been given here
this is all we got and we gotta start pickin it
every second counts on a clock that's tickin'
gotta live like we're dying

We only got
86 400 seconds in a day to
turn it all around or throw it all away
we gotta tell 'em that we love 'em
while we got the chance to say
gotta live like we're dying

Like we're dying oh-- like we're dying [x2]

We only got
86 400 seconds in a day to
turn it all around or throw it all away
we gotta tell 'em that we love 'em
while we got the chance to say
gotta live -- like we're dying

We never know a good thing till it's gone
you never see a crash until it's head on
all those people right when we're dead wrong
you never know a good thing till it's gone

Yeah... gotta start
lookin at the hand of the time we've been given here
this is all we got and we gotta start livin it
every second counts on a clock that's tickin'
gotta live like we're dying

We only got
86 400 seconds in a day to
turn it all around or throw it all away
we gotta tell 'em that we love 'em
while we got the chance to say
gotta live like we're dying

Like we're dying oh -- like we're dying [x2]

We only got
86 400 seconds in a day to
turn it all around or throw it all away
we gotta tell 'em that we love 'em
while we got the chance to say
gotta live like we're dying
live like we're dying

The Script's version sounds more original.

Come Home - One Republic

2009-09-21T23:49:00.000+08:00

Hello world
Hope you're listening
Forgive me if I'm young
For speaking out of turn
There's someone I've been missing
I think that they could be
The better half of me
They're in the wrong place trying to make it right
But I'm tired of justifying
So i say you'll..

Come home
Come home
Cause I've been waiting for you
For so long
For so long
And right now there's a war between the vanities
But all i see is you and me
The fight for you is all I've ever known
So come home
Oh

I get lost in the beauty
Of everything i see
The world ain't as half as bad
As they paint it to be
If all the sons
If all the daughters
Stopped to take it in
Well hopefully the hate subsides and the love can begin
It might start now..Yeahh
Well maybe I'm just dreaming out loud
Until then

Come home
Come home
Cause I've been waiting for you
For so long
For so long
And right now there's a war between the vanities
But all i see is you and me
The fight for you is all I've ever known
Ever known
So come home
Oh

Everything i can't be
Is everything you should be
And that's why i need you here
Everything i can't be
Is everything you should be
And that's why i need you here
So hear this now

Come home
Come home
Cause I've been waiting for you
For so long
For so long
And right now there's a war between the vanities
But all i see is you and me
The fight for you is all I've ever known
Ever known
So come home
Come home

20 / 09 / 2009

2009-09-20T23:03:00.003+08:00

See the title ?

A very special day today. 20 / 09 /2009. And it's my 2ooth post here. Didn't realize it..

Went for tuition this morning. Then after that went to take my dog..Haven't really gave her a name..She's cute ^^ Then spent lotsa time with my dog..Then something urgent cropped up. Couldn't fetch Meng Sean to church then..Sorry again >.< Relatives came..

Felt good once more. Really =))

My love towards you is more than yesterday and less than tomorrow

2009-09-18T17:15:00.001+08:00

I guess the love story ended there.

Just let it stay there.

YOU ?
WILL or WILL NOT come back ?

Amaran

2009-09-17T23:44:00.005+08:00

Don't ever mock me on the way I pursue my path of education ( Form 6 ) .

I have my reasons for sure.

Thank you.

Malfunction

2009-09-15T22:25:00.001+08:00

MUET. Don't know what to expect.

Chemistry. Hope it's not too bad.

PA. Fail or Pass ?

Blublublublu ~

Kenangan Terindah

2009-09-12T20:58:00.000+08:00

Aku yang lemah tanpamu
Aku yang rentan karena
Cinta yang tlah hilang darimu
Yang mampu menyanjungku

Selama mata terbuka
Sampai jantung tak berdetak
Selama itu pun
Aku mampu tuk mengenangmu

Darimu, kutemukan hidupku
Bagiku, kau lah cinta sejati

Bila yang tertulis untukku
Adalah yang terbaik untukmu
Kan kujadikan kau kenangan
Yang terindah dalam hidupku
Namun takkan mudah bagiku
Meninggalkan jejak hidupku
Yang telah terukir abadi
Sebagai kenangan yang terindah

Bila yang tertulis untukku
Adalah yang terbaik untukmu
Kan kujadikan kau kenangan
Yang terindah dalam hidupku
Namun takkan mudah bagiku
Meninggalkan jejak hidupku
Yang telah terukir abadi
Sebagai kenangan yang terindah

For you. Cherished those moments with you... ^^

Are You Doing Okay ?

2009-09-12T09:30:00.001+08:00

You Found Me

2009-09-10T15:41:00.000+08:00

Lost something all this while.

Got to find it back.

The Complusive One

2009-09-09T22:32:00.007+08:00

WARNING : The image below is very graphical. It's something which would make you pee in your pants if it's the first time you're viewing this. For those who've seen it before , let's just stay still and recall those memories we had with this " thing " .

There you go !! It's a Mestin.. MESTIN..I was thinking about the name of this thing for the whole day. Couldn't figure it out. Echen was even more excited than me and she finally got her answer from her NS friend. XD

Basically , it's a small aluminium tray that you use to cook in. It's widely use during camping and we managed to use it during our NS training. It's kinda cool recalling the memories where we went to the lake and washed it until it was extremely clean. We used sand to scrub and remove those food residue especially the harden rice crusts..

Another thing we had was the water bottle that were provided for us. Take a look at it.

I kn0w this sudden NS post is crap. But the main thing there is still the Mestin. LOLS

It brings out the happiness in everyone ..Food tastes nicer. xp

Grace

2009-09-02T00:13:00.001+08:00

Your EX-es..They trust you =)

1 Thing , 2 Do , 3 Words , 4 You..

2009-09-01T19:12:00.005+08:00

The Best Moments In Life

1. Falling in love.

2. Laughing till your stomach hurts.

3. Enjoying a ride down the country side.

4. Listening to your favorite song on the radio.

5. Going to sleep listening to the rain pouring outside.

6. Getting out of the shower and wrapping yourself with a warm, fuzzy towel.

7. Passing your final exams with good grades.

8. Being part of an interesting conversation.

9. Finding some money in some old pants.

10. Laughing at yourself.

11. Sharing a wonderful dinner with all your friends.

12. Laughing without a reason.

13. 'Accidentally' hearing someone say somthing good about you.

14. Watching the sunset.

15. Listening to a song that reminds you of an important person in your life.

16. Receiving or giving your first kiss.

17. Feeling breatheless when seeing this 'special' someone.

18. Having a great time with your friends.

19. Seeing the one you love happy.

20. Wearing the shirt of a person you love and smelling his/her perfume.

21. Visiting an old friend of yours and remembering great memories.

22. Hearing some telling you 'I LOVE YOU'

And lastly , specially for Kylie...

23. Flirting XD

Woots ~ =D

From The Bottom Of My Heart

2009-08-31T23:06:00.001+08:00

I cherish all my previous relationships. Winks* =D

Amiable , Enviable , Unperturbed ?

2009-08-31T18:38:00.001+08:00

Changed my blog song 3 times in 3 hours.. ==

Could We Ever Be Together ?

2009-08-31T15:59:00.000+08:00

Alrightie..

Emo-ness has got to stop here.

大嘴巴 - 永遠在身邊

2009-08-26T18:55:00.002+08:00

Baby boy永遠永遠手牽手
一步兩步一起走
永遠永遠要記得
我們要一起生活

不管晴天的時候
不管下雨的時候
不放開手到永久
我們要一起生活

眼淚她為你流過也為自己掉過
對於你們的愛她總是抱著堅強的笑容
錯過那些時間謝謝她的守候
是時候緊緊牽她的手帶她到你的城堡裡

最近還好嗎想念的心開不了口
枯想著妳有沒有好好過擔心著妳每天生活
你好嗎最近如何照顧身體工作加油
我一個人也會勇敢好好過不讓你擔心多一秒
想念著每天每秒我們故事每天每秒說好的事
兩個人一起散步是最浪漫的事
你是我的天使給我力量能夠堅持

那些關心問候翅膀一樣的雙手是我最幸福的所有
心裡面有你建的角落脆弱時我能夠躲一躲
妳愛我像翅膀一樣溫柔的手我要抱著妳不要再錯過
你的愛是最藍那片天空 coz baby girl Im coming back home

Baby boy永遠永遠手牽手
一步兩步一起走
永遠永遠要記得
我們要一起生活

不管晴天的時候
不管下雨的時候
不放開手到永久
我們要一起生活

幸福少了妳在身邊不會完整
人潮中朝你走來那張可愛微笑的臉孔
這份愛不是悸動守護一輩子的感動
這段路踏著幸福的每一步一起牽著手

心疼妳會睡不好總是縮在床的一角
我要回來給妳依靠哄妳看妳笑著睡著
照片裡你的微笑我們甜蜜得打鬧
好希望微風把思念代替我親吻你嘴角
想念著每天每秒我們故事每天每秒說好的事
約定好去看的風景愛譜成了詩
你就是我的天使給我力量能夠堅持

陽光燦爛午後我又在街上走你的影子不再寂寞
想到你的身邊到不了像個路人般看熱鬧
經過那個屬於我們的轉角走過兩個人曾經逛的街
那些店還有熟悉的畫面 oh baby girl I'm coming back home

Baby boy永遠永遠手牽手
一步兩步一起走
永遠永遠要記得
我們要一起生活

不管晴天的時候
不管下雨的時候
不放開手到永久
我們要一起生活

沒有辦法想像那畫面
一個孤獨的背影走在小公園
一顆心需要暖一雙手需要牽
故事要有美好結局需要兩雙手來寫
永遠不是只出現在童話裡的夢
在身邊眼淚加了蜜糖甜
這句點要完美畫在無名指上
承諾的開始
戀人們要一起珍藏

>.<

At The End Of The Day , Smile =)

2009-08-24T22:38:00.003+08:00

Had a nice morning , did my work. In the afternoon , played PS and then was really freaking bored. Empty mind. Tried to sleep. Didn't work. Then had some snacks and went online for a while before going to tuition. Tuition was quite fun. After tuition , Steven and I went to take a look at the juniors doing their rehearsal for Friday's installation. They're improving each year. After that , went to Boston for dinner. First time I went there. LOLS..The food there doesn't taste bad really. In fact , if you make the right choice , then you'll enjoy it..XP Then went home..Simple as that.

I hope it only gets better. Period.

E For Eugene

2009-08-24T00:10:00.005+08:00

Go easy on my conscious cause it's not my fault..
But I felt shame..Guilt..Nightmares..They keep haunting me..

It's about time to stop it isn't it ?

Eugene ( not Gene ) signs off.
Good Night ~ =)

Tear Down The Walls

2009-08-20T22:05:00.003+08:00

My heart is given to you .
Oh do give me yours..
We'll lock them up together ,
And throw away the key.

But now my heart is shattered into pieces ,
And you're giving it back to me ,
I am trying to mend those scars on it ,
And give it to another person when it heals.

E.G

2009-08-17T22:44:00.001+08:00

Being single is a good thing. That's if you can keep yourself busy or flirt well. =)

Qi Qing Liu Yu

2009-08-10T20:46:00.004+08:00

Today early morning then had stomach ache. Babi betul..Back from school at 4pm then had to rush to Chemistry tuition at 5pm. Nowadays people simply shout I Love You out of nowhere. I saw it happened in school == . Damn tired now. Monday get to watch House later =)

Protection masks out of stock..really a sad thing. Sis needs it badly.
I've updated the previous post.

Listening to 21 Guns ^^

Breathe And Let Go

2009-08-02T23:12:00.005+08:00

Anything that takes place in our life , there are sure to be regrets. Whether they are moments of joy or tragedies , regrets come in all sizes. We always think we can do better in any way somehow. To prevent a disaster from happening or satisfying our own greed. ( already sufficient needs ) The fact is most of the time , there is nothing else that can be done when these circumstances arise. Regrets makes us aware that we are imperfect and life itself is imperfect. Tells us that fighting till the end has got to end at one point. That point is where we realize that nothing lasts forever.

Tragedies. We loathe it a lot. Always wondering how life would turn out to be in heaven. There is no doubt that the real life sucks. People die , they leave , and some of them hide. But if you dig down deep , you'll find a silver lining. Take in the good memories with you and make them let you see that there is something left in life worth remembering. That you had great days with people you love. We always learn something. Always.

Grief. It's like the ocean , deep , dark and all around us. The pain that arises from it is like a thief in the night. Selfish and heartless , taking away everything that was precious to you. At the end of the day , we're confused and feel senseless. We try to seek clarity in every way possible. Sometimes , trying to believe that something like that shouldn't had happen. We shouldn't act like that. Life is too short to be miserable. Have your own desired faith that things will turn out fine. It leads to hope. When you're having a hard time , remember that there are people around you. They love you. They want to go through this together with you. It's subtle to say that you're selfish if you don't share your ups and downs with these people. I think it's quite true.

Everyone is equally important. They may not mean anything to you but they could mean a lot to someone. A person will always be loved by somebody. He or she could be a son / daughter , father / mother , brother / sister , friend , lover , leader of a country , a classmate and even you yourself. There are people who don't even love themselves. Every person deserves to be loved and to be given a second chance in life. And when it comes , grab it.

" He who does not grieve , does not see. "

Translated by a friend of mine. =)

在我们的一生里，总有一些让我们遗憾的事。不管是喜或悲，大大小小的遗憾。我们总认为我们可以做的更好，在防止灾难或者满足自己的欲望。事实是，在这些灾难发生时，我们什么事都不能做。遗憾让我们发现人是不完美的，这也告诉我们奋斗到最后还是得结束，这让我们知道没有事是一辈子的。
悲剧。是让人憎恨的。常常想像在天堂是什么样的。不能质问的，人身就是那么恶劣。生老病死甚至逃避都是必竟之路。把美好的回忆永远放在心里的某一出好让你觉得人生还是美好的。在这些回忆里，我们一定能学到东西，一定。
悲痛，像一片深不见底的海。它夺走一切对你珍贵的事物。最总，我们彷徨无助。我们常常寻找事情的真相。人生短暂到不应许我们痛苦。相信自己的信念吧。它走向希望。当你遇到困难是，想想你并不是孤军奋战的，身边总有人支持你，爱你。可以这么说，是自私的如果你不分享。
全部人都是同等重要的。可能他们对你没有任何意义，不过要记得，别人可能很需要他们。一个人总会被某人所爱。他或她可能是一位儿子，女儿，父亲，母亲，哥哥妹妹，朋友，爱人，国家的领导者，同学甚至你自己。每个人都有权被爱和赐于第二次机会。当机会来了，就紧紧的把握吧。
“他，是不悲痛，眼不见”

Now I know faith is relentless

2009-08-01T15:40:00.002+08:00

Don't be selfish.

Faith is what keeps you believing for certain issues.

It's a good decision =)

What You're Made Of - Lucie Silvas

2009-07-31T23:43:00.002+08:00

This video from Henry's blog caught my eye. Love the lyrics ^^

Just like I predicted, We're at the point of no return
We can go backwards, and no corners have been turned.
I can't control it, if I sink or if I swim
'cause I chose the water that I'm in.

[BRIDGE]
And it makes no difference who is right or wrong
I deserve much more than this
'Cause there's only one thing I want

[CHORUS]
If it's not what you're made of
You're not what I'm looking for
You where willing but unable to give me anymore
There's no way, You're changing, cause somethings will just never be mine,
You're not love this time ... but it's allright.

I hear you talking, but your words don't mean a thing.
I doubt you ever put your heart into anything.
It's not much to ask for, to get back what I put in,
But I chose the waters that I'm in.

[BRIDGE]
And it makes no difference who is right or wrong
I deserve much more than this
'Cause there's only one thing I want

[CHORUS]
If it's not what you're made of
You're not what I'm looking for
You where willing but unable to give me anymore
There's no way, You're changing, cause somethings will just never be mine
You're not love this time ... but it's allright.

What's your definition of the one
What you really want him to become?
No matter what I sacrifice it's still never enough

Just like I predicted
I will sink before I swim
'cause these are the waters that I'm in

[CHORUS]
If it's not what you're made of
You're not what I'm looking for
You where willing but unable to give me anymore
There's no way, You're changing, cause somethings will just never be mine
You're not love this time
You're not love this time
You're not love this time ...

LOLS

2009-07-31T21:00:00.001+08:00

Pigs didn't start the swine flu..Lala ~

Pondering

2009-07-30T21:09:00.005+08:00

Remembering how it all started amazes me sometimes..It just came and went..Now it comes to where we are standing right now. Giving all I got. Hoping you would too..

Both my feet are still firmly placed on the ground. What about yours ?

Rainy Day

2009-07-22T23:33:00.004+08:00

Wasted lotsa time in school today. There were no lessons.. == Debate competition for Form 6 going on. Spent most of the time in cyber station and chatting. The debate is continuing tomorrow , but I am going..Then exam on Friday. Tomorrow's papers postponed to Monday.

I miss you. =(

Better Make A Decison Quick

2009-07-14T20:47:00.004+08:00

51 years about 11 months had passed since our Independence Day.
Six Prime Ministers have taken up their responsibility to lead the nation to harmony and greater success. According to the chart below , I don't think there is a successor to Najib. Will Malaysia be in a dire state again ? Will we be under the '' Supernatural " colonization? Then we'll be under curfew , Alien Style.. =p

R - Rahman
A - Abdullah
H - Hussein Onn
M - Mahathir
A - Abdul Razak
N - Najib

Burfday

2009-07-08T21:06:00.002+08:00

~ Happy Birthday Mom ~

Love you =>

You Are Not Alone

2009-07-07T21:13:00.000+08:00

Another day has gone
I'm still all alone
How could this be
You're not here with me
You never said goodbye
Someone tell me why
Did you have to go
And leave my world so cold

Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

But you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
But you are not alone

'Lone, 'lone
Why, 'lone

Just the other night
I thought I heard you cry
Asking me to come
And hold you in my arms
I can hear your prayers
Your burdens I will bear
But first I need your hand
Then forever can begin

Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
For you are not alone

Whisper three words and I'll come runnin'
And girl you know that I'll be there
I'll be there

You are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay
For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart

For you are not alone...

Love Yourself,Or Else Who Will?

2009-07-05T21:29:00.003+08:00

What did I do the whole day today? Lazying around.
Learn to love yourself. Period.

First Love

2009-07-04T10:14:00.002+08:00

Oops , I Did It Again

2009-07-03T23:54:00.004+08:00

Megan Fox is not a man. I want to clarify this. Sorry for the wrong information from me.

Megan Fox is actually struggling with Tourette's syndrome. Tourette's is a neurological condition that short circuits the brain usual inhibitors. So a person can say what ever pops into their head. In fact they can't stop themselves. The more they think about it the harder it is to stop. The same holds true in any socially tense situation, like job interviews and dates. In fact Tourette's Syndrome has been nick named the Swearing Sickness.

Megan looking like the next young Hollywood star who is going to make it big is constantly being in hot water for the things she says unconsciously. She has been making wild statements during interviews such as "I'm a man, a man who likes ", and "I'm like a tranny, I'm Alan Alda."

The entertainment industry often label Tourette's syndrome as social misfits. The fact is this syndrome isn't much of a trouble if it's well supported and accepted by the public. Other than celebrites such as Megan who have this syndrome , musicians and atheletes such as Tim Howard also suffers from constant swearing. They have been speculations that Mozart also suffered form Tourette's.

Meanwhile , let's just tape up Megan's mouth with a strip of duct tape and hope she doesn't embarress herself too much. Or else she might not get the role for Transformers 3. =p

P.S : Sorry for the grammatical mistakes. >.<

If And Only If

2009-07-03T14:03:00.003+08:00

These days, it’s so fashionable to give in to the belief that the Philippines is hopeless, that it’s catch as catch can and the devil take the hindmost.

But every once in a while, a story comes along that stands out because it highlights the best in every Filipino — the traits that we sometimes forget we have and that others have to see in us before we even remember that they exist.

Then, you realize that we’re only hopeless if we think we are. And that we can actually do something to improve the lives of the people around us if we set our minds to it.

Many people have heard of the story of Dylan Wilk, the rich young Englishman who started a life of improving the plight of poor, homeless Filipinos by selling his BMW to build cheap houses for 80 families. But few people really know what led Wilk to do what he did two years ago.

Now Wilk has settled in Manila, where he has become one of the most prominent endorsers of everything good in the Pinoy. He was interviewed by Bo Sanchez for Kerygma magazine, the alternative Christian glossy, which is published by Shepherd’s Voice.

Nowadays, when every politician seems to be talking about how to save the poor and the country without really doing anything, it’s nice to here from someone who has actually dedicated his life to doing just that — one household at a time.

*****

Dylan Wilk was born to a poor family. But at the young age of 20, he started a computer games company that made him a millionaire. Soon, Dylan operated in nine countries and ran his own TV channel. Then at the age of 25, Dylan sold his company for multimillion British pounds. He became the ninth richest person in the Great Britain under the age of 30.

But one night, while lying in bed, he was distressed by a nagging question that wouldn’t let him sleep. “God, why am I rich?”

He asked if there was a reason for his immense wealth. Ironically, he also felt terribly empty inside. This, despite his ability to have any kind of pleasure he wanted. He had just bought himself a brand-new Ferrari and took one holiday after another. But he was discovering that pleasure was like fire... it constantly needed more fuel to keep it going. And he realized he would never be happy in the path he was taking.

One day, a Filipina friend visited him. She said she felt guilty going there because her plane fare could have built two homes for the poor. That made Dylan pause. How can you build two houses for that measly amount? He decided to investigate.

In January 2003, he visited the Philippines. And for three hours, Gawad Kalinga (GK) Director Tony Meloto brought Dylan to different GK villages for the poor. With his own eyes, he saw something that would change his life forever...

Bo: What did you see on that day?

Dylan: I saw hope. More than newly built houses, I saw transformed lives. We were entering rather dangerous slums, breeding ground for thieves and kidnappers... yet in the middle of that was an oasis... the Gawad Kalinga village. I saw people smiling, men working, children laughing... I’ve seen many other projects in South East Asia and across the world. And I’ve never seen anything like GK. This was different. This really worked!

Bo: So what did you do after your trip?

Dylan: I went back to England. I saw my BMW parked in the garage and realized I could build 80 homes with it... and affect the lives of 600 people. I saw the faces of the children I could help. I called up Tony Meloto and told him I was thinking of donating $100,000 to Gawad Kalinga and asked him if that was okay...

Bo: What did Tony say?

Dylan: He said, “No, I don’t want your money.”

Bo: Only Tony can say something like that. (Laughs.)

Dylan: He said if I was really serious in working for the poor, I should go back to the Philippines. So two months later, I sold my BMW and flew back to Manila. And in June of that year, I made a decision to stay in the Philippines and work for GK for seven more years.

Bo: Wow.

Dylan: I’ve decided to invest in the poor of the Philippines. Not in stocks or bonds. If I can help in uplifting the poor of this country, I can say that I spent my life well.

Bo: I presume your family wasn’t too crazy about that decision.

Dylan: No! They thought I was brainwashed by a religious cult! (Laughs.) So my mother came and spied on me. But she was soon convinced of the beautiful work we were doing and went back home and told my sister about it. And my sister said, “Oh no, they brainwashed you too!” (Laughs.) But today, all of them support what I do.

Bo: You’ve made a decision to give up your wealth for the Filipino poor.

Dylan: I don’t see it as a sacrifice. When you give charity out of pity, you feel pain parting with your money. But when you give charity because you love, you don’t feel that pain. You only feel the joy of giving to someone you love. That’s what I feel.

Bo: I hear you built an entire village for GK in Bulacan.

Dylan: I don’t see it as my village. I just provided the materials. Architects, engineers, volunteers gave their labor. Together, we built 63 houses for the poor.

Bo: Amazing. What else do you do?

Dylan: I go around the world telling everyone that Filipinos are heroic. Because I work with them every day... the volunteers of GK.

Bo: What do you see in the Filipino that we take for granted?

Dylan : You’re hardworking. You’re always laughing, always eating, always singing. Even in your problems. You’re loyal. And honest. Sure, there are exceptions, but generally, that’s been my experience. And you have the bayanihan spirit. The pyramids of Egypt are beautiful but they were built by slavery. GK villages are more beautiful because they’re made through the bayanihan spirit of the Filipino. It’s especially this bayanihan and love of family and community that makes the Filipino more valuable than gold. If you take a golden nugget and kick it on the floor for 400 years, afterwards you won’t be able to see much gold, just mud. This was what happened to the Filipino... for 400 years you were slaves and then you suffered under dictatorship and corruption. This is where the crab mentality came from; I don’t think it’s a natural Filipino quality because every day I see the gold under the surface of ordinary Filipinos. If we wipe away the mud by bringing hope and being brothers to one another in bayanihan, the gold will shine through and the world will see it.

Bo: Let me get personal here. I hear that you don’t only love the Filipinos, but you’ve fallen for a particular Filipina.

Dylan: (Smiles.) Two months ago, I married Anna Meloto, the eldest daughter of Tony Meloto. She grew up with the GK work, so we’re totally one in our mission. And yes, I’ll be having Filipino children. The best way I can secure a future for my kids is to continue to help raise this country from poverty. Instead of building high walls in an exclusive subdivision to protect us from thieves and kidnappers, I will go to the breeding ground of thieves and kidnappers and help transform their lives.

Bo: Thank you for this interview. You don’t know how much you inspired me.

Dylan: Thank you for being our partner in GK. I read Kerygma every month and I’m happy to see GK stories in every issue.

Bo: It’s our immense privilege to tell the world about it and ask others to join the miracle.

Dylan: To me, GK isn’t just Gawad Kalinga. It is a part of “God’s Kingdom” in this world. Thank you.

" A real man is one who is unselfish. "

False Hopes

2009-07-02T17:50:00.012+08:00

LOS ANGELES, CA – The internet has been abuzz since this Sunday’s Golden Globes ceremony, where Megan Fox jokingly remarked that she looked like a man.

When interviewed on the red carpet, she said “I look like Alan Alda in drag. I’m a tranny. I’m a man.”

At the time, reporters passed it off as a jovial attempt to cover for her nerves.However, today she has cleared the air and officially reported: she’s really a man.Megan Fox was born Mitchell Reed Fox in Rockwood, Tennessee. From an early age, Mitchell showed an interest in both performing and women’s clothing. When having a preacher lay hands on him did not ‘cure’ him of these interests, his parents simply put him on the pageant circuit.

By the age of 13, Mitchell had already started a career as a female child performer called ‘Megan Fox’. Making her debut on an Olsen Twins straight-to-video release, the twins have kept his secret all this time.

As a sweet 16 present, Fox’s parents offered him sexual reassignment surgery, which, given their child’s career, they’d hoped to write off as a business expense. Unfortunately laws prohibit such surgery to be done to minors.

Since then Megan has been working non-stop, and been included on many Hottest Women lists in publications around the world.Megan, as she goes by now exclusively, also noted this Sunday how much she wants Salma Hayek’s figure. She has even scheduled surgery later this month to get it. After the two met in New York this week, Hayek offered to have a cast made of her bust so doctors can match them exactly on Megan Fox’s chest.

She's too hot to be true ? =p

21 Guns - Green Day

2009-07-01T22:55:00.000+08:00

Do you know what's worth fighting for
When it's not worth dying for?
Does it take you breath away
And you feel yourself suffocating?
Does the pain weight out the pride?
And you look for a place to hide?
Does someone break your heart inside?
You're in ruins

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms
Give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky
You and I

When you're at the end of the road
And you lost all sense of control
And your thoughts have taken their toll
When your mind breaks the spirit of your soul
Your faith walks on broken glass
And the hangover doesn't pass
Nothing's ever built to last
You're in ruins

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms
Give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky
You and I

Did you try to live on your own
When you burned down the house and home?
Did you stand too close to the fire?
Like a liar looking for forgiveness from a stone

When it's time to live and let die
And you can't get another try
Something inside this heart has died
You're in ruins

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms
Give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky
You and I

I Still See Light

2009-07-01T22:18:00.003+08:00

I am going to fail MUET.

Do not underestimate me to the extent that I can't be able to fail MUET. Anything's possible.

Sounds real negative huh? Haha..I'm not over reacting but this is a real situation.. >.<

Black Or White

2009-06-28T23:50:00.003+08:00

Woke up at 7.30 today..Did lil bit of Chemistry homework then bathed and get ready for Maths tuition..Fetched Steven along. Today crapped and gossiped a lot with me sitting in between Edward and Steven. Came back at 1 pm. Had lunch which was not appetizing and then watched some badminton before going to YF. Have not been to YF for a long time dy..Lazynya aku..Managed to caught up with many people..Happy luu =)

Fact of the day , a person can only take a maximum of 8 tablets of Paracetamol a day.

Signing off, good night~

I Thought I Was Bumblebee

2009-06-26T21:26:00.002+08:00

Tomorrow tomorrow and tomorrow..Life's brief candle. In a blink of an eye , all gone.

Lotsa homework nowadays..Almost had an accident just now. Freaked someone out. Me myself was kinda freaked out too. Transformers was simply great. Worth the money. I'm tired....of many things...

Everything makes sense. YOU just have to practice more and figure it out yourself.

The supernatural species aren't giving you a hint. God is.

I need you now >.<

RIP Jackson.

Heartless,Mindless,Meaningless =(

2009-06-24T17:48:00.004+08:00

Recently having lotsa homework in school. Plus I'm really not that hardworking xD I am wearing back my prefect attire..Woots ~ My class is noisy no doubt and sometimes can be really outta control. The teachers don't like it =( Not attending school on Friday and the following Monday is a holiday..Cool =)

Maybe , I am going to catch Transformers this Friday. Should be with some friends.

There's this very depressed girl who's very worried..Haha..Cheer up. If you see this , you're not alone ^.^

Before I Sleep

2009-06-21T22:54:00.004+08:00

They're good ^^

What happened if Beethoven and Mozart died at the same exact second when they were upon completion of their composition?

Good Night.