Staring out at the trees
In this gutsy wind
They waved back at me
How i wish it was you who were there
Lying down
Every night
Your face pops out
And I ain't fine
My love
All I want is you
I believe it's true
Thought I could forget you
But it ain't true
It's a fact
It's still there
They say we're not meant to be
But who cares
I'm in love
And I swear that's true
They consoled
I smiled
The next thing
Pieces of my heart madly inconsolable
My heartbreak makes way for others
Replacements make things worse
Turning back
I realize
I miss you
My love
All I want is you
I believe it's true
Really hope you do
Knowing how I felt
Towards you
It's a fact
It's still there
It's not supposed to end like that
Don't let me go easily
I never did
You wouldn't understand why
Didn't I shed a tear
But had restless nights
Why didn't I tried
But had soulless heart
Why didn't I killed myself
But had nothing on my mind
But you
Only you
My love
Worries and dreams
Happiness and joy
Everything of you
Including your smile
It's still there.
February 24, 2008
January 6, 2008
A World Of Differences
I was chatting with sarah yesterday and she was like Eugeeeneee...It's 2.30am here and i can't sleep..And she got's church the next day..She slept in the afternoon and woke up..Not long after that it's hyper sarah again..Lolz..I was feeling kind of lethargic actually..Sarah wanted my views on this malaysian/asian lifestyle or mentality thing..Honestly,I told her that i don't really like it.It's somehow too noisy and dirty i guess.I love the lifestyle of those non-asian countries,where it's more enjoyable. =)
Sarah just couldn't understand this whole asian mentality thing really.Her mum still hasn't really left this mentality behind in her life.Maybe beacause all of her closest relatives are in Malaysia and it's kinda hard i guess.But her dad has already left this mindset behind.I personally think it's beacause maybe her dad's parents are there with him..so maybe it's easier you know..Personally,I think religious views also has an impact on what kind of lifestyle that you would like to cultivate as well as the different perspective on how you look at things.Different people tend to have various types of living ways.All affected by suroundings,religious views and political issues i guess.For me,I think Christianity makes people more liberal in their views on life.I can see the difference in many of my friends who are actually Christians.They tend to have a more enjoyable life and don't really take everything seriously.They still hold on strongly to their belief in God.And that's good.It's really good to find what you believe in sincerely.
Sarah said that she was shocked when she went to Singapore.At there,you would have to hold on to a strong high level of education to survive.It's like children at such a tender age have to study study and study..Although I can't deny the fact that the education system in Sinagapore is somehow better than the ones in Malaysia.
They don't really have a chance to experience a proper enjoyable and fun childhood.In Australia,children at a tender age are supposed to be enjoying life and they do not really emphasize on eduaction that much.
There is a hell lot of difference in a majority of things between Australia and Malaysia.Just look at the difference in the neighbourhood in Malaysia and Australia.Here,it seems to be so noisy and those damn Chihuahas opposite my house are still barking insanely whenever somebody passes by.In Australia,it seems to be much more calm and I think it's much more safer secuirity wise.And we do have world class shopping centres in Malaysia and Singapore,but it's utterly useless.There's still a difference and a big gap you see..
Sarah told me lots about Aussie.
Basically,she goes to school at 8.47am and school dismisses at 3.05 pm.They have like 8 periods in school or something.
They do have lockers in school.And in private school,they have big long ones...Flabbergasted~
They just casually go from class to class to attend lessons..
There's not much of a big deal if you're late.Some teachers do give you a heck of a scolding while some just don't care.
In class,some teachers are strict and they really want you to pay attention and do well.But some teachers make the lessons fun.They usually do their homework when it's due to be passsed up.They usually do it before a period.Imagine if you're doing homework during recess or revising whenever you have free time here.You'll get mocked like hearing people saying "Kiasu lar","Lame",'Don't be so harworking lah".Such things just shows that the asian mentality is still very much different from the other non-asian countries where in Asia discouragement produces a deeper impact on student's lives.
Hmm..how well do they fare in examinations in school?
The syllabus in public schools are not that tough.But in selective schools,they tend to be more competetive in terms of academic performances.Sarah said that most people in public schools fail their examinations and they don't care.Neither do the teachers care.Enjoying life is a higher priority. Basically,the teachers just give out assignments and you just do it.It's your problem really if you decide to do it or not.The main reason is the teachers never check on them.You have to cope yourself and count on yourself .Not like spoonfeeding education systems in Malaysia.In Malaysia, you rarely get a good job without a pursuit of high level education.I'm not saying that we shouldn't study..But,it's really hard for students here to balance between working and enjoying life.The main reason is beacuse when you get back from school,you do your homework and also go for tons of tuition classes.Some people have tuition classes everyday.Imagine that!!!
In Aussie,some indulge in sports after school,hang out in the mall,or even hang out at friends houses.Tutoring doesn't seems to be a popular subject among Aussies kids.It seems that only Asian parents there would find their kids a tutor.Otherwise,some don't even know tutoring exists!!!
Honestly,I would like to experience this kind of life at least once in my life eventhough it's for a short term.
Sarah asked me to go to Aussie at the end of this year.Of course I would like to.I've been there when i was small.But i was so blur~ at that tender age..>.<
That's not for me to decide..Parents will. =)
Sarah just couldn't understand this whole asian mentality thing really.Her mum still hasn't really left this mentality behind in her life.Maybe beacause all of her closest relatives are in Malaysia and it's kinda hard i guess.But her dad has already left this mindset behind.I personally think it's beacause maybe her dad's parents are there with him..so maybe it's easier you know..Personally,I think religious views also has an impact on what kind of lifestyle that you would like to cultivate as well as the different perspective on how you look at things.Different people tend to have various types of living ways.All affected by suroundings,religious views and political issues i guess.For me,I think Christianity makes people more liberal in their views on life.I can see the difference in many of my friends who are actually Christians.They tend to have a more enjoyable life and don't really take everything seriously.They still hold on strongly to their belief in God.And that's good.It's really good to find what you believe in sincerely.
Sarah said that she was shocked when she went to Singapore.At there,you would have to hold on to a strong high level of education to survive.It's like children at such a tender age have to study study and study..Although I can't deny the fact that the education system in Sinagapore is somehow better than the ones in Malaysia.
They don't really have a chance to experience a proper enjoyable and fun childhood.In Australia,children at a tender age are supposed to be enjoying life and they do not really emphasize on eduaction that much.
There is a hell lot of difference in a majority of things between Australia and Malaysia.Just look at the difference in the neighbourhood in Malaysia and Australia.Here,it seems to be so noisy and those damn Chihuahas opposite my house are still barking insanely whenever somebody passes by.In Australia,it seems to be much more calm and I think it's much more safer secuirity wise.And we do have world class shopping centres in Malaysia and Singapore,but it's utterly useless.There's still a difference and a big gap you see..
Sarah told me lots about Aussie.
Basically,she goes to school at 8.47am and school dismisses at 3.05 pm.They have like 8 periods in school or something.
They do have lockers in school.And in private school,they have big long ones...Flabbergasted~
They just casually go from class to class to attend lessons..
There's not much of a big deal if you're late.Some teachers do give you a heck of a scolding while some just don't care.
In class,some teachers are strict and they really want you to pay attention and do well.But some teachers make the lessons fun.They usually do their homework when it's due to be passsed up.They usually do it before a period.Imagine if you're doing homework during recess or revising whenever you have free time here.You'll get mocked like hearing people saying "Kiasu lar","Lame",'Don't be so harworking lah".Such things just shows that the asian mentality is still very much different from the other non-asian countries where in Asia discouragement produces a deeper impact on student's lives.
Hmm..how well do they fare in examinations in school?
The syllabus in public schools are not that tough.But in selective schools,they tend to be more competetive in terms of academic performances.Sarah said that most people in public schools fail their examinations and they don't care.Neither do the teachers care.Enjoying life is a higher priority. Basically,the teachers just give out assignments and you just do it.It's your problem really if you decide to do it or not.The main reason is the teachers never check on them.You have to cope yourself and count on yourself .Not like spoonfeeding education systems in Malaysia.In Malaysia, you rarely get a good job without a pursuit of high level education.I'm not saying that we shouldn't study..But,it's really hard for students here to balance between working and enjoying life.The main reason is beacuse when you get back from school,you do your homework and also go for tons of tuition classes.Some people have tuition classes everyday.Imagine that!!!
In Aussie,some indulge in sports after school,hang out in the mall,or even hang out at friends houses.Tutoring doesn't seems to be a popular subject among Aussies kids.It seems that only Asian parents there would find their kids a tutor.Otherwise,some don't even know tutoring exists!!!
Honestly,I would like to experience this kind of life at least once in my life eventhough it's for a short term.
Sarah asked me to go to Aussie at the end of this year.Of course I would like to.I've been there when i was small.But i was so blur~ at that tender age..>.<
That's not for me to decide..Parents will. =)
December 31, 2007
A Look Back At 2007
It's 9.52 pm on the 31st of December 2007..
As the clock strikes twelve tonight,it'll be the end of surprisingly 12 months,which makes that a year of course..Duh..
It'll be a beginning of something new.The year 2008 awaits.I don't apply feng shui in my life,but according to many feng shui and astrology masters,the year 2008 will be a year as tough as this present one.I hope it'll be a great year of peace and disease-free problems.God bless everyone. =)
As i turn back and looked at what I've gone through in the past 12 months,I found bitterness,sweet memories,and tough situations that weren't really that pleasant.I started the year with self-grown confidence but my naive perception of things just made things tough for me.Majority of the ordeal came from school.You know..
When someones self-esteem is kinda low,it makes things hard for them..real hard..Eugene was always an optimistic guy.So he was thinking why the hell can't he get pass this.I was to blame partly for this matter.Eugene just didn't get it.How things work here and there
I did not understand some of the facts.It was a really hard time for me right then.But Eugene dug up the courage and faced it with pride and dignity.As time passed by,it worked out well.I had became what i want and i was damn sure i was happy with it.
But what is done can't be undone.So I had to face the consequences really in the end.I tried my very best.But in the end i did not prevail."It's all or nothing if you can't make the shot" Nathan Scott said.Lucas fails to make the final three-pointer."We tried our best.No regrets" Nathan Scott said.
No regrets it is.This year has really been a hell of a roller coaster ride.I was like a guy trapped in quicksand.Wondering what to do.
Every move i make could be fatal.I'm really happy that it happened though.Lessons learnt.No regrets.
A new year is approaching.God bless everyone and this new year.
Happy New Year =)
“Regret comes in all shapes and sizes. Some are small like when we do a bad thing for a good reason. Some are bigger like when you let down a friend.Some of us escape the pain of regret by making the right choice. Some of us have little time for regret because we're looking forward to the future. Sometimes we have to fight to come to terms with the past, and sometimes we bury our regret by promising to change your own ways.But, our biggest regrets are not for the things we did -- but, for the things we didn't do. Things we didn't say that could've save someone that we care about. Especially when we can see the dark storm that's headed their way.”
-Lucas Scott
“There are moments in our lives when we find ourselves at a crossroads; afraid, confused, without a road map. The choices we make in those moments will define us for the rest of our days. Of course, when faced with the unknown, most of us prefer to turn around and go back. But once in a while people push onto something better. Something found just beyond the pain of going it alone, and just beyond the bravery and courage it takes to let someone in, or to give someone a second chance. Something beyond the quiet persistence of a dream. Because it's only when you're tested that you discover who you truly are. And it's only when you're tested that you discover who you can be. The person you want to be does exist, somewhere on the other side of hard work, faith and belief. And beyond the heartache and fear of what lies ahead.”
-Lucas Scott
As the clock strikes twelve tonight,it'll be the end of surprisingly 12 months,which makes that a year of course..Duh..
It'll be a beginning of something new.The year 2008 awaits.I don't apply feng shui in my life,but according to many feng shui and astrology masters,the year 2008 will be a year as tough as this present one.I hope it'll be a great year of peace and disease-free problems.God bless everyone. =)
As i turn back and looked at what I've gone through in the past 12 months,I found bitterness,sweet memories,and tough situations that weren't really that pleasant.I started the year with self-grown confidence but my naive perception of things just made things tough for me.Majority of the ordeal came from school.You know..
When someones self-esteem is kinda low,it makes things hard for them..real hard..Eugene was always an optimistic guy.So he was thinking why the hell can't he get pass this.I was to blame partly for this matter.Eugene just didn't get it.How things work here and there
I did not understand some of the facts.It was a really hard time for me right then.But Eugene dug up the courage and faced it with pride and dignity.As time passed by,it worked out well.I had became what i want and i was damn sure i was happy with it.
But what is done can't be undone.So I had to face the consequences really in the end.I tried my very best.But in the end i did not prevail."It's all or nothing if you can't make the shot" Nathan Scott said.Lucas fails to make the final three-pointer."We tried our best.No regrets" Nathan Scott said.
No regrets it is.This year has really been a hell of a roller coaster ride.I was like a guy trapped in quicksand.Wondering what to do.
Every move i make could be fatal.I'm really happy that it happened though.Lessons learnt.No regrets.
A new year is approaching.God bless everyone and this new year.
Happy New Year =)
“Regret comes in all shapes and sizes. Some are small like when we do a bad thing for a good reason. Some are bigger like when you let down a friend.Some of us escape the pain of regret by making the right choice. Some of us have little time for regret because we're looking forward to the future. Sometimes we have to fight to come to terms with the past, and sometimes we bury our regret by promising to change your own ways.But, our biggest regrets are not for the things we did -- but, for the things we didn't do. Things we didn't say that could've save someone that we care about. Especially when we can see the dark storm that's headed their way.”
-Lucas Scott
“There are moments in our lives when we find ourselves at a crossroads; afraid, confused, without a road map. The choices we make in those moments will define us for the rest of our days. Of course, when faced with the unknown, most of us prefer to turn around and go back. But once in a while people push onto something better. Something found just beyond the pain of going it alone, and just beyond the bravery and courage it takes to let someone in, or to give someone a second chance. Something beyond the quiet persistence of a dream. Because it's only when you're tested that you discover who you truly are. And it's only when you're tested that you discover who you can be. The person you want to be does exist, somewhere on the other side of hard work, faith and belief. And beyond the heartache and fear of what lies ahead.”
-Lucas Scott
November 26, 2007
Aloha
Just to inform everyone,I'll be heading to KL tomorrow morning..
The day after that,Hong Kong here i come..Will be using the Airasia cabin service..Cheap and affordable..Suitable for short duration flights..It is really advisable not to use Airasia services for long haul flights..NO food and drinks provided..Not forgetting the flight delays too..I've just experienced one when i was on the way to Sabah in August..The weather in Hong Kong is kinda cold..
12 degrees Celsius i was informed..That's freezing cold enough for me..But I've experienced even worst climate conditions.. =p
I should be back in Malaysia on the 4th of Dec..I'll be heading to my mum's hometown,Alor Setar right after that..Really hectic schedule
After i came back from the camp,went to JB then Singapore..
It has really taken the toll of me..Guess that's all..I will be updating on my trip after i 'm back in BP..Gonna miss everyone..Miss me guys~ =)
~Happy Holidays~
The day after that,Hong Kong here i come..Will be using the Airasia cabin service..Cheap and affordable..Suitable for short duration flights..It is really advisable not to use Airasia services for long haul flights..NO food and drinks provided..Not forgetting the flight delays too..I've just experienced one when i was on the way to Sabah in August..The weather in Hong Kong is kinda cold..
12 degrees Celsius i was informed..That's freezing cold enough for me..But I've experienced even worst climate conditions.. =p
I should be back in Malaysia on the 4th of Dec..I'll be heading to my mum's hometown,Alor Setar right after that..Really hectic schedule
After i came back from the camp,went to JB then Singapore..
It has really taken the toll of me..Guess that's all..I will be updating on my trip after i 'm back in BP..Gonna miss everyone..Miss me guys~ =)
~Happy Holidays~
November 4, 2007
Not Me
This was the first time all of us met since the month of April,
Happy and excited I felt,
But it wasn't really the same for them,
They were happy together and with the others,
But not me,
I was alienated,
Only to be left guilty and remorseful,
I knew it was my fault,
But I really hope they would understand,
The truth and complexity of my life,
They left me there,
All alone,
Watching them,
Having the best time of their lives,
But not me,
It was hard for me to watch really,
But i endured the pain,
Although it's not me,
Oh,it's not me,
Sometimes sorry seems to be the hardest word,
Would they realize,
Destiny is outta my control,
I threw everything I had,
But it's not me...
Happy and excited I felt,
But it wasn't really the same for them,
They were happy together and with the others,
But not me,
I was alienated,
Only to be left guilty and remorseful,
I knew it was my fault,
But I really hope they would understand,
The truth and complexity of my life,
They left me there,
All alone,
Watching them,
Having the best time of their lives,
But not me,
It was hard for me to watch really,
But i endured the pain,
Although it's not me,
Oh,it's not me,
Sometimes sorry seems to be the hardest word,
Would they realize,
Destiny is outta my control,
I threw everything I had,
But it's not me...
October 14, 2007
Bad Day
Saw the news this morning and got to know that 28 people died in accidents yesterday..As usual,this always happens during the festive season especially during Raya..I'm wondering..Why does this keeps happening every year and the government never makes anything out of it..?We have the so called safety programme to ensure the safety of drivers and passengers,OPS Sikap which I think is utterly useless.. I'm frustrated..Seeing lives gone in just a split second almost everyday..Of course,this doesn't implies on deaths occuring during accidents only though..Just look around and you will be able to see murder cases,rape cases and also abduction cases happenning everywhere each and everyday..These incidents just filled up the entire front page of the newspapers and frontline of the news..Recently,we had some suspected sadistic killings as what happened to poor little Nurin..This certainly is not what we wanna see in a country that practices peace and harmony as a part of its principles..I was shocked..really shocked when i heard about that news..I usually see these kind of cases happening when I'm watching Criminal Minds on TV..Honestly,I've never thought such a cruel thing would land in our country..>.<
Sometimes i do wonder,why can't we have more news regarding Malaysian citizens dying or sacrificing their lives for their country by doing something that everyone will be proud of instead of having murder and rape cases everywhere..Why can't we have more news like having Malaysian astronauts in space or venturing to the North Pole..Why don't we see Malaysians dying or risking their lives just because to save their national flag from being stepped on and the country's dignity from being humiliated..?
Everything seems to be happening for the wrong reasons somehow..What's the real story behind all these..?I would like to find out somehow..In the meantime,if this grueling happenings occur continuously and a solution is not proposed out quickly..it certainly doesn't bode well for the future of Malaysia and mankind..
This world really does need more LOVE~
"When the power of love overcomes the love of power,the world will know peace."
"Everything is changeable,everything appears and disappears; there is no blissful peace until one passes beyond the agony of life and death."
Sometimes i do wonder,why can't we have more news regarding Malaysian citizens dying or sacrificing their lives for their country by doing something that everyone will be proud of instead of having murder and rape cases everywhere..Why can't we have more news like having Malaysian astronauts in space or venturing to the North Pole..Why don't we see Malaysians dying or risking their lives just because to save their national flag from being stepped on and the country's dignity from being humiliated..?
Everything seems to be happening for the wrong reasons somehow..What's the real story behind all these..?I would like to find out somehow..In the meantime,if this grueling happenings occur continuously and a solution is not proposed out quickly..it certainly doesn't bode well for the future of Malaysia and mankind..
This world really does need more LOVE~
"When the power of love overcomes the love of power,the world will know peace."
"Everything is changeable,everything appears and disappears; there is no blissful peace until one passes beyond the agony of life and death."
October 13, 2007
Make It Through The Rain
When you get caught in the rain
With no where to run
When you are distraught and in pain
Without anyone,
When you keep crying out to be saved
But nobody comes
And you feel so far away
That you just can't find your way home
You can get there alone it's okay
once you say.
I can make it through the rain
I can stand up once again
On my own and I know
That I'm strong enough to mend
And everytime I feel afraid
I hold tighter to my faith
And I live one more day
And I make it through the rain.
And if you keep falling down
Don't you dare give in
You will arise safe and sound
So keep pressing on steadfastly
And you'll find what you'll need to prevail
Once you say.
I can make it through the rain
I can stand up once again
On my own and I know
That I'm strong enough to mend
And everytime I feel afraid
I hold tighter to my faith
And I live one more day
And I make it through the rain.
And when the wind blows
And shadows grow close
Don't be afraid
There's nothing you can't face
And should they tell you
You'll never pull through
Don't hesitate, stand tall and say
I can make it through the rain
I can stand up once again
On my own and I know
That I'm strong enough to mend
And everytime I feel afraid
I hold tighter to my faith
And I live one more day
And I make it through the rain
I can make it through the rain
And stand up once again
And I'll live one more day and I
I can make it through the rain
Oh yes you can
Oh your gonna make it through the
Rain
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