Not Me

This was the first time all of us met since the month of April,
Happy and excited I felt,
But it wasn't really the same for them,
They were happy together and with the others,
But not me,
I was alienated,
Only to be left guilty and remorseful,
I knew it was my fault,
But I really hope they would understand,
The truth and complexity of my life,
They left me there,
All alone,
Watching them,
Having the best time of their lives,
But not me,
It was hard for me to watch really,
But i endured the pain,
Although it's not me,
Oh,it's not me,
Sometimes sorry seems to be the hardest word,
Would they realize,
Destiny is outta my control,
I threw everything I had,
But it's not me...